After weeks of saying to myself I really must get back on th blog here I am. Hoping that my not so new toy of an IPad will make finding the time to post that much easier but also wondering if I will be discipline enough to write regularly.
My long and winding road really has started and already I am wondering what I have done - or more to the pint what has God done! I keep thinking that there has been a mistake and I'm not really meant to be actually training to be a priest. It's been worse weirdly when I have been at college when I just feel so unworthy and lightweight next to my fellow Ordinands (still loving being able to use that word!)Yet when I'm not there but reading,working,being in church or just simply being , it all seems exactly right and what I was born for. Yes I still worry about workload, balancing family and work commitments and what will happen when I complete my training but there is something very calm inside me saying all will be well and I know that I need to hang on to that as there are tough times ahead and I shall ned all my reserves of strength and faith to carry me through such times.
One of the things that has ben recommended to us is to keep a journal reflecting on how our training is going and how we feel. So this is my journal and musings on how it feels to be aspiring to priesthood but maintaining my identity as wife, mother , daughter , friend, colleague.Could this be a form of contextual theology? Is God working His purpose out in me? I don't know but here I go finding out!
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